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Monday, November 23, 2015

Thanksgiving Message


Thanks


Thanks for your prayers and messages of hope. I'm feeling a lot better. Everything went well. The Doc wants me to rest for a while. 



We arrived in Mexico City with high hopes. The previous doctors had told me a bypass was inevitable, but we hoped to avoid that.


Aurora, as ever, was optimistic that everything would go well.


Lucy was there for backup.


The bus ride was long



But soon we were in Mexico City.


We were met by Tio Arturo, Aurora's uncle Arthur.


Everything in Mexico City is big and industrial


The famous "second floor of the periferico" extends for miles, blocking out the sun with its serpentine coils of concrete. It looks like something from a science fiction movie


Aurora's uncle delivered us to the Hospital 20 de November. The hospital is named for the day of Mexico's revolution which coincided with the day of our visit and Aurora's birthday.



The 20 de Noviembre Hospital is the most advanced, technologically in all of Mexico. The cardiologists told me that if I couldn't fix my heart here, I would have to go to the United States.


This is the conference room on the second floor of the hospital. The team of cardiologists meet here to discuss the different cases and how they will proceed. There's a battery of tests and analysis and a variety of procedures and operations offered as options.


Here's Aurora trying to look optimistic. The doctors told us they would give it their best shot.


After four hours of inspection, injection, dejection, rejection, and selection, the operation was a success. The doctors were able to open a second artery. They inserted 2 stents and improved my chances of living a long healthy life.



After consultation with the team, I'm supposed to take it easy for a while. But I'm feeling much better. No more chest pains.

Dr. Andres Figueroa, leader of the Cardiologist team that took care of me.

Special thanks to Dr. Andres Figueroa of 20 de November, Hospital. The Mexican people get a bad rap in the press from bigoted and racist fools, but a young and dedicated team of Mexican cardiologists and doctors saved my life. They were compassionate, caring, and very professional. It makes me happy to know that there are so many young people like Dr. Figueroa. He headed up the team of about 11 medical professionals who took on my case, not to mention all the nurses and staff who were at the ready. It gives me joy to be alive knowing that Mexico is such a young and vibrant country with plenty of talent, hopes and dreams. I'm inspired to be part of the educational system here, where I get the chance to work with students who plan to make a difference. I was at the Hospital 20 de November on the day of Mexico's Revolution, 20 of November which is also Aurora's birthday. So, Viva Mexico.


I'm taking it easy for a while. But thanks to everyone for their prayers and well-wishes.  God Bless all. Gaura Hari bol.


Tuesday, November 17, 2015

O you sons of nectar....

Reflections on Nectar and Surrender


Churning for Nectar




Amrita, pronounced A-MREE-TA. The word amrita means “deathless, immortal, eternal,” but also “nectar, ambrosia, liquor.” It’s hard to understand how one word could have such a range of meaning.
Amṛta was originally the elixir of the gods. The Puranas describe a battle between the gods and demons, where the gods win. Their prize is amṛta, a kind of drink.

Ingredients:
1 Ocean of Milk
1 Mount Mandara, covered with various plants, spices, herbs and flowering trees. (To be used as axis, or churning rod.)
108 gods
109 demons
1 large serpent, Vasuki by name.
An Avatar of Vishnu, Kurma, to steady the axis.
Vishnu Himself to sit atop the mountain, steadying it from above

Production of Amṛta

Preparation:
1. Remove Mount Mandara from its resting place and carry it to the Ocean of Milk. Fix the mountain atop the Kurma Avatara to use as a churning rod, and carefully wrap the Vasuki serpent around the mountain. Have God Himself as Lord Vishnu sit atop the mountain.
2. Arrange the gods on one side, the demons on the other.
3. Gods take the serpent by the tale, demons take the serpent by the head.
4. Commence churning.
5. Continue thus, for a few thousand years time by the calculation of the gods.
6. Allow the herbs and flowering trees of Mount Mandara to fully steep in the churned liquid.
7. When poison is produced by the mixture, have Lord Shiva catch the poison in his throat.
Serves: gods not demons. The resulting mixture is called amṛta. The idea is that this drink, or nectar, produces immortality. Since it is better to have immortal gods than demons, it is best to offer the mix to the gods.

So, nectar may originally refer to the elixir created as a product of the battle between gods and demons, but it is not limited to this idea. By extension amṛta, or “nectar,” means “immortality,” or “that which gives eternal life.” The Upaniṣads say,

शृण्वन्तु बिश्वे अमृतस्य पुत्रा
आ ये धामानि दिब्यानि तस्थुः

শৃণ্ৱন্তু বিশ্ৱে অমৃতস্য পুত্রা
আ যে ধামানি দিব্যানি তস্থুঃ

śṛṇvantu viśve amṛtasya putrā
ā ye dhāmāni dibyāni tasthuḥ


शृण्वन्तु/śrinvantu= Listen/hear, बिश्वे/viśve= in the world, अमृतस्य/amṛtasya= of immortality, पुत्रा/putrā= Children
Śvetāśvatara Upaniad, Chapter II, Verse 5

"O, you sons of nectar! O, you sons of the nectarine ocean sea! Please listen to me. You were born in nectar; you were born to taste nectar: Do not allow yourselves to be satisfied by anything but nectar! Awake! Arise! Search for that nectar! The object of your inner search exists. It is the wealth of your own soul: it cannot but be within you. Search for Sri Krishna: Reality the Beautiful."

Amṛta refers to both life-giving medicine as well as immortality.
A translation of amṛta might render “deathless,”(a-mṛt, nondeath) “immortal nectar” or “deathless ambrosia,” but without a careful reading, amṛta is difficult to translate in English.

This is because the idea “death-less” or “non-mortal,” is really a negation of a negation. But merely to negate death is not a positive understanding of eternal life.

Shridhar Mahāraja’s Prappana-jivanāmṛta explores the positive concept of eternal life. The word prapanna is synonymous with Śaranagati. It means“surrender.”Śaranāgati is explained by Bhaktivinod Ṭhakura as the means to progress in the search for Śrī Kṛṣṇa. Perfection can never be attained by our own works or efforts, but through the process of surrender.

Prapanna-Jīvanāmṛta describes how surrender in divine love is both process and goal.

When some of his translators promoted the idea of “Nectar of Surrender” as a title, Shridhar Maharaja suggested that in English “Positive and Progressive Immortality” would be closer to the theme. Shridhara Maharaja’s point was that amṛta means immortality (a mṛtyu), but not in a commplace conception. Normally, the sense of “a-mṛtyu” is negative: death-less, or im-mortal. But real eternal life should be positive. We must have a place in a higher world; a positive role to play in the spiritual world.

This may be achieved through surrender. Normally, surrender also has a negative connotation. Winston Churchill’s most famous rousing speech, “We shall fight them on the beaches…” concludes, “We shall never, never, surrender.”

Surrender is an awful prospect. Milton’s Satan puts it succinctly, “better to rule in hell than to serve in heaven.”


Shridhar Maharaja liked the Hegelian principle of thesis-antithesis synthesis as seen in the master-slave symbiosis. The master is all-powerful lord: thesis. The slave is helpless servant: antithesis. And yet, the slave make his service so indispensable that the master relies on him for everything. The master needs the slave to find his shoes, to pay his bills, to provide transportation, and so on. The master ends by becoming completely dependent on the slave. The slave ends by having absolute power over the master. Synthesis: the slave becomes the master. The disciple becomes the guru.

Not that we are interesting in mastering God, but the Hegelian dialectic when applied to surrender reveals a powerful dynamic: Love conquers all. Even God Himself. Absolute surrender, absolute slavery results in perfect freedom. Perfect freedom and immortality in divine love are the nectar spoken of in Prapanna-jīvanāmṛtam.

Having analyzed the Hegelian master/slave analogy, Shridhar Maharaja embraces the idea that surrender, or “increasing one’s negative tendency” leads to “positive immortality.” So these two apparently negative concepts, “surrender” or “increasing one’s negative tendency” and amṛta or deathlessnes, become positive in a perfect Hegelian synthesis.

So the most perfect immortality, positive and progressive Amṛta can be found in surrender. And for who?

For the jīva. The jīva refers to the conditioned soul, whose tendency for exploitation, or “positive tendency” has evolved in reverse, from the undifferentiated plane of cosmic consciousness to the world of exploitation where he resists surrender to the divine master. The jīva takes the words of Milton, “Better to rule in hell than to serve in heaven,” as her gospel.

"Better to reign in hell than to serve in heaven"

Shridhar Maharaja echoed these themes in lecture after lecture. His insistence on using the expression “positive and progressive immortality” was essential to understanding the meaning of Prapanna-jivanamritam.

And yet he was not blithe about the prospect of surrender. He understood that giving one’s life in surrender was difficult and implied deep sacrifice. One time, when we were listening to his talk, he concluded a point. He tapped the arm of his chair with his fingertips as he often did when he was satisfied that he had made an explanation clear. He turned to us and looked at us to see if we understood.

“Do you follow?” he said.
I said, “hari bol!”
He looked at me, his eyes magnified by his thick black-plastic framed glasses and said, “Hari Bol! and horrible. The prospect of surrender is such.”

Shridhar Maharaja knew well that surrender is not an easy prospect. The ambrosia of immortality derived from sacrifice is not attained easily, as we can see from the Purānic story.

And yet, Surrender reveals our highest prospect.


ভব-দুঃখ-বিনাশশ্ চ, পর-নিস্তার-যোগ্যতা
পরং পদং প্রপত্ত্যৈব, কৃষ্ণ-সম্প্রাপ্তির্ এব চ [৩৯]
bhava-duḥkha-vināśaś ca, para-nistāra-yogyatā
paraṁ padaṃ prapattyaiva, kṛṣṇa-samprāptir eva ca [39]

Only through surrender does one become free from the miseries of material existence and attain the supreme abode of Kṛṣṇa.


In the first chapter of Prapanna-jivanamritam, Śrīdhara Mahārāja quotes the Bhagavatam:

“তদ্-ৱাগ্-ৱিসর্গো জনতাঘ-ৱিপ্লৱো
যস্মিন্ প্রতি-শ্লোকম্ অবদ্ধবত্য্ অপি ।
নামান্য্ অনন্তস্য যশো ‘ঙ্কিতানি যত্
শৃণ্ৱন্তি গাযন্তি গৃণন্তি সাধৱঃ” ।।৬।।

“tad-vāg-visargo janatāgha-viplavo
yasmin prati-ślokam abaddhabaty api
nāmāny anantasya yaśo ‘ṅkitāni yat
śṛṇvanti gāyanti gṛṇanti sādhavaḥ” [Prapanna-jivanāmṛta 1.6]

True devotees take delight in reading and singing verses about Kṛṣṇa even if the stanza is flawed, or badly written. Even when the translation is inexact, those books which glorify the holy name and deeds of Kṛṣṇa are welcomed and worshipped. Such literature purifies all sin.
“অভিব্যক্তা মত্তঃ প্রকৃতি-লঘু-রূপাদ্ অপি বুধা
ৱিধাত্রী সিদ্ধাঋথান্ হরি-গুণমযী ৱঃ কৃতির্ ইযম্
পুলিন্দেনা[য্ অগ্নিঃ কিম্ উ সমিধম্ উন্মথ্য জনিতোর্
হিরণ্য-শ্রেণীনাম্ অপহরতি নান্তঃ কলুষতম্”
“abhivyaktā mattaḥ prakṛti-laghu-rūpād api budhā
vidhātrī siddhāṛthān hari-guṇamayī vaḥ kṛtir iyam
pulindenā[y agniḥ kim u samidham unmathya janitor
hiraṇya-śreṇīnām apaharati nāntaḥ kaluṣatam”
[Prapanna-jivanāmṛta 1.7]

“Even though written by a sinner, this book, will help fulfill your dreams, good readers. O learned ones, even a sinner can make a fire by rubbing sticks together. And fire can purify gold. While these truths are spoken by someone as unworthy as myself, this fire can purify gold.”

Sincerity is all in all. I am unfit to pronounce the name of Rūpa Goswāmī of that of Shridhar Maharaja. Still, the above-mentioned verse shows that great souls will accept the truth even when spoken by sinners. Gold can be purified with fire, even if the fire is lit by a sinner. In the same way, we hope that devotees will get some light from the humble offerings here at Journey to Surrender.







Monday, November 16, 2015

La Historia Continua: La edad de Kali...

La Edad de Kali

नारायणं नमस्कृत्य नरं चैव नरोत्तमम्
 देवीं सरस्वतीं चैव ततो जयम् उदीरयेत्

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Con el tiempo Damayanti tuvo dos hijos: una hija, Indrasena, y un hijo, Indrasen. Nala gobernó su reino con justicia y practicaba los sacrificios Védicos. Había abundancia en la tierra.
Pero Kali recorría el reino de los Nishadha esperando una oportunidad. Ahora, este Kali era una especie de Gandharva, de mal carácter, oscuro y siniestro en todos sentidos. Este diablo cara de perro era negro como el carbón con una lengua enorme. Hedor pestilente  a carne podrida impregnaba su carne. Kali tenía el poder de poseer el alma de los hombres. Entraba en ellos y les provocaba hacia actos pecaminosos. Cada día la influencia de Kali se siente, esta es su era, Kali-yuga. Está presente en todo lugar en donde se come carne, hay intoxicación, se practica el sexo ilícito y donde se juegan juegos de azar. Se opone a todos los principios religiosos, especialmente la austeridad, la limpieza, la misericordia, la veracidad. El envidioso Kali disfruta promover la guerra, la envidia, el odio y las mentiras. Nació en una larga línea de monstruos de la lujuria y el incesto. Era el hijo de Krodha, Ira, y de su hermana, Violencia. Y conforme su influencia se hace más y más profunda, la propia humanidad se precipita hacia los abismos de la ira, la violencia y el pecado. Mataderos, niños llevando armas, y la destrucción del planeta son los aspectos de la influencia de Kali. ¡Ay de Nala!, el satánico Kali traza su ruina. Ha entrado en la tierra de Nishadha y observa al Rey Nala, espera su oportunidad de entrar en él, puesto que Kali era un ser sobrenatural que podía entrar en el cuerpo de un hombre que hubiera pecado y controlar su espíritu y posteriormente corromperlo.
Pero Nala no tenía pecados. Kali le observaba y esperaba su oportunidad, se escondía y se hacía invisible. Esperaba su hora, rondaba el palacio que Nala gobernaba. Y como un fantasma seguía a Nala, día y noche durante 12 años. Algunos dicen que Kali-yuga dura 12 mil años, y que los 12 años que los Pāṇḍavas pasaron en el bosque es un reflejo de ese tiempo.
Finalmente, llegó su hora. Un día Nala fue a realizar su adoración sin haberse lavado los pies. No estaba completamente limpio, y sin embargo, así de contaminado, llevó a cabo su adoración. Kali vio su oportunidad. Aprovechó el momento. Entró al cuerpo de Nala, infectando con el espíritu de Kali a ese gran rey con su influencia.
Ahora que el Rey Nala estaba infectado con el espíritu de Kali sufría bajo su poder. No era ya más él mismo. Empezó a perder las oraciones de la mañana. Se olvidaba de sus actividades piadosas. Ya no invitaba a los santos a discutir con él, acerca del significado profundo de las escrituras. Gradualmente se hundió en la ignorancia.
Y ahora que Nala estaba bajo su influencia, Kali lo dejó por un tiempo. Para satisfacer su plan de venganza, Kali lo ató a un hechizo de discordia, y como Nala estaba bajo su hechizo, el propio demonio Kali dejó el cuerpo físico de Nala por un tiempo.
Con el fin de desarrollar sus planes de venganza contra Nala, Kali fue hacia otro rey, Pushkara, que era hermano de Nala y gobernaba en otro sitio de Nishadha. Atrajo a Pushkara bajo su influencia jugando con su avaricia y envidia. Le prometió a Pushkara una victoria fácil en apostar contra Nala, Le dijo, “Invita a Nala a jugar contigo a los dados. No temas, pues mi poder entrará en los dados y determinará el resultado. Apuesta lo que quieras. Haré que el juego parezca un deporte, pero al final con seguridad le vencerás. De este modo, podrás ganar su reino y toda su fortuna. Gobernarás tanto en Nishadha como en Vidarbha como el rey indiscutible de todo el reino”.
Con la adulación, mentiras y dulces palabras Kali atrajo a Pushkara bajo su influencia. Kali lo dejó y regresó a Vishadha en donde habitaba Nala, quien gradualmente caía bajo el hechizo. Kali lo poseyó por entero y lo sometió a su control.
Pushkara pasaba las noches sin dormir pensando en la vasta fortuna que le aguardaba. Todo lo que necesitaba hacer era arrojar los dados con su hermano. Espero un tiempo y luego hizo los arreglos para visitar a Nala.
Al llegar a Vishadha, Pushkara fue bienvenido por Nala con toda la hospitalidad a su disposición.
“Mi hermano”, dijo, “Me da tanto placer que hayas venido a visitarme después de tanto tiempo. Quédate aquí conmigo en mi Palacio y gobernemos juntos”.
“No estoy calificado para tal honor”, dijo Pushkara, “pero pasemos un tiempo juntos!.
Y al atardecer tumbados mientras admiraban la puesta del sol, Pushkara hablo a Nala de la siguiente manera:
“Eres experto de tantas formas, mi hemrnao: Caballos, mujeres, comida incluso en el juego de dados. Pero esta tarde veo a mi estrella de la fuerte aún ahora en los cielos. Me siento afortunado. Juguemos a los dados. Tú, por supuesto, eres mucho más experto. Pero creo que hoy es mi día de suerte”.
Nala dijo, “Mis días de apostar se han terminado. Ahora que estoy casado tengo muchas responsabilidades. No es una buena idea. Entretengámonos con otra cosa”.
Con estyo, Damayanti entró acompañada de sus siervas llevando bebidas refrescantes.
“Qué maravilloso que tu hermano haya venido de visita”, dijo. “Si quieres traeré a los músicos de la corte”.
Y Pushkara dijo, “Estábamos a punto de jugar a los dados”.
Nala sonrió. “Si insistes en perder, juguemos apuestas amistosas”, dijo. Dio una palmada. Un sirviente apareció. “Trae la mesa de juego de dados”. Dijo.
Se colocó la mesa del juego de dados, hermosas alfombras y almohadas se acomodaron. Se trajeron bebidas. Los dos hermanos se instalaron a jugar. Mientras jugaban, el ministro del rey se les unió, interesado en el juego. Hasta los residentes de palacio y la gente del pueblo llegó a ver el juego. Se sentaron tranquilos mientras los dos hermanos hacían rodar los dados.
“Tú vas primero”, dijo Nala, galantemente, aunque ahora estaba completamente poseído por Kali.
“¿Qué apostaremos? Dijo Pushkara.
“Juguemos apuestas amistosas. Apuesto un cuenco de arroz”.
“Hecho”, dijo Pushkara.
Y lanzó los dados y Pushkara perdió.
“Ya ves”, dijo Nala. “No es tu noche de suerte después de todo. Qué vengan entonces los músicos”.
“Debes permitirme la revancha”, dijo Pushkara. “Apostemos un saco de arroz”.
“Muy bien”, dijo Nala.
Tiraron de nuevo los dados. De nuevo perdió Pushkara.
“¿Dónde está tu suerte ahora?” dijo Nala, disfrutando de sí mismo.
“Bueno, tal vez la estrella necesita una apuesta más grande. En lugar de arroz, Apostemos plata en la próxima ronda”.
“Como quieras, hermano”, dijo Nala.
En este punto Nala estaba ya completamente bajo la influencia de Kali. Kali ya no necesitaba poseerlo por completo. El demoniaco Kali dejó a Nala y entró en los dados. Tiraron de nuevo los dados.
“Gané° Dijo Pushkara. “Tal vez sí es mi noche de suerte”.
“La habilidad vencerá a la suerte”. Dijo Nala, “Tiremos de nuevo”.
“Mi carro contra el tuyo”. Dijo Pushkara.
Y así Nala empezó a apostar y a perder. Perdió su carruaje, su plata y después apostó oro puro y refinado, vagones, elefantes, manadas de caballos, y ropas de seda. Nala se enloqueció con la emoción de los dados. La gente contemplaba horrorizada como empezaba a perderlo todo. No podía parar. Perdió su fortuna tiro tras tiro. Pero seguía y seguía jugando, hasta que Nala lo había perdido todo.
Jugaron hasta entrada la noche, y Nala en ocasiones ganaba lo suficiente de su propia fortuna con lo que recuperaba esperanzas y hacía apuestas más extravagantes en un intento enloquecido de recuperar todo. Y entonces perdía de nuevo.
El juego continúo.
Jugaron día tras día. La gente del pueblo estaba asombrada. Los consejeros del rey llegaron y le aconsejaron al rey que era momento de detener esta locura, pero bajo la influencia de Kali, Nala no pudo detenerse.
Los ministros le dijeron al rey que tenían negocios importantes: el juego debía suspenderse. La gente estaba impaciente con la corrupción del rey. Y Damayanti, además de estar preocupada, le dijo a Nala que era hora de detener su vicio.
Pero Nala, inflamado con la locura del juego lo había perdido todo. Estaba sorprendido de su derrota constante. No escuchaba ningún consejo sino que continuaba y continuaba con el juego. Damayanti, entendió que la locura de Nala lo llevaba hacia su ruina, mandó a sus hijos con una cuadriga de confianza hacia el reino de Vidarbha y su padre, Bhima.
Después de que Pushkara había ganado todo de Nala. Jugaron por su reino y sus tierras. De nuevo perdió. Y cuando Nala ya no tuvo nada que perder, Pushkara dijo, “¿Cuál será la apuesta ahora? Todo lo que te queda es la bella Damayanti. Muy bien. Juguemos por ella. Seamos justos. Me juego todo lo que has perdido contra la hermosa Damayanti. Si ganas, ganas todo de vuelta. Si yo gano, tomo a Damayanti”.
Pero Nala había tenido suficiente. Miró a Pushkar a los ojos mientras se quitaba sus vestimentas de seda y finos adornos hasta que estuvo vestido en taparrabos. Dejó caer toda su ropa en un montón delante del rey codicioso, le dijo “Toma tus ganancias, y abandonó la corte.
Caminó hacia las puertas de palacio y continúo caminado. Salió de la ciudad, se dirigió al bosque. Ahí pasó tres noches con su esposa. Pero el cruel Pushkar lanzó un decreto real. “Nala está exiliado. Todo aquél que tenga atenciones hacia él o le ayude será condenado a muerte, con efecto inmediato”.
Y fue así, Oh Yudhiṣthira, que Nala fue exiliado al bosque. Los ciudadanos lo abandonaron. Tampoco le dieron refugio ni hospitalidad, sino que le cerraron las puertas al rey. Fue dejado a morirse de hambre en el bosque con solo un taparrabos para protegerse del frío.



Sunday, November 15, 2015

Teachers, Mentors, Gurus

Reflections on the Guru Principle


Śrīdhara Mahārāja explaining "Die to Live."
In an earlier article, we spoke of the need to ask “Why?” We wrote about the taboos placed on this question by authoritarian society. Inquiry is not meant to be irreverent and impertinent. Questions should not be asked merely to be questioning or clever. Real inquiry should strive for meaning.

The Vedas say, athāto brahma-jiñāsa, “Now is the time to make inquiry into Spirit.” True spiritual inquiry begins with self-examination, but inward truth-seeking inevitably turns outward. I may make so much progress alone, but sooner or later I will benefit from the advice and experience of other truth-seekers. The most-experienced and adept of truth-seekers may become my teacher.

I’ve been asked to write something explaining the nature of guru, or the guru principle.

Of course, if spirituality is a purely personal question, there would seem to be no need for a guru. Each one of us dies alone. Each one of us has to make the trip to the spiritual beyond alone. Who can tell us what awaits us on that ultimate journey?
Thesis Antithesis, Synthesis

This is especially true if there is no final destination. If this physical world is all in all, and no spiritual reality exists independent of the time-space continuum, then the entire exercise of spiritual practice is a waste of time.

Of course this defies Pascal’s Wager. Blaise Pascal was a French philosopher and mathematician. His famous quote was, “The heart has reasons that reason cannot know.” An odd expression for one who dedicated his life to rational thought in mathematics. And yet Pascal said life is a wager. Either God exists or he doesn’t. If he doesn’t exist and we do nothing, there is no loss. If he does exist and we do nothing, we lose. On the other hand if God exists and we act as if immortal life with God matters, we win.

It may be only a 50/50 proposition, but if we lose, we lose our immortal soul. Not exactly a proof for God’s existence, but worth thinking about.


Again, if there is no immortal soul and there is no God, then spiritual practice may be meaningless. You needn’t read further.

And yet, if we are immortal, if there is a conscious entity who survives the destruction of the body, we must face a deeper question. What is the nature of immortality? How do we become aware of our own immortality? What is enlightenment or illumination? Is immortality static or dynamic?

Static immortality implies that we reach a state of divine equality and balance, or samādhi, in eternal life. After achieving this state there can be no further growth or development: we have reached IT, nirvana, oneness. This is certainly a possibility. In fact, most meditation societies aim at just such a goal.

And yet, such a state denies the dynamic aspect of reality. In our own experience, reality involves give and take, positive and negative, yin and yang, masculine and feminine. If spiritual reality exists, why would it be devoid of all dynamic?

Another great philosopher in Western truth-seeking was Georg Frederich Hegel. One of the key concepts he developed was the evolution of ideal reality through thesis, anti-thesis, and synthesis. A thing or thesis implies its opposite or antithesis. The union of opposites evolves into a new thing, a synthesis.


The Chinese have a practical way of demonstrating Hegel’s concept. Yin is white and negative. Alone it has only negative power. Yang is positive power. Without a receptive energy positive power has nowhere to go. Combined, the negative and positive, the feminine and masculine create a powerful dynamic: the flow between positive and negative defines the world. Scientists examine the positive and negative aspects of material nature. The flow of charged particles create electricity and many other forces.

Why then, should spiritual reality be a dead and static thing? What if immortality is positive? What would the nature of positive immortality? Generations of truth-seekers have dedicated their sojourn in the material world to this question. Jesus Christ spoke of God as his “Father.” He said, “In my Father’s house are many mansions.” What did he mean by this? Of course, we understand how to read this metaphorically, but what if he had a more dynamic meaning in mind?

These are all complex questions, difficult to sort out. Our mundane lives are filled with so many survival issues that we often find ourselves with no time to contemplate the universe. Sex, money, love, property. As William Wordsworth put it, “The world is too much with us...getting and spending we lay waste our powers.”

The central argument of the Hindu epic, the Mahābhārata is found in the Bhagavad-gītā, the deepest wisdom teachings of that great tradition. Those teachings begin with Arjuna’s dilemma.


Arjuna is not a delicate intellectual. He is a great warrior. He is to India’s tradition what Achilles or Hector are to Greek Mythology. He has fought the ghost warriors of the Nivata-Kavacha, killed man-eating Rakshasas, wrestled Naga serpents, and dueled with various kings and princes. He is well-known as a dangerous archer and a powerful wrestler. His strength is rivaled only by his brother Bhima himself.

And yet, unlike the ruthless Achilles who drags the dead body of his rival Hector behind his chariot, Arjuna has a conscience. Just at the moment when the conflict is about to begin, he flinches. Kurukshetra is a war which will define the ancient world. We are told that militaristic kings gathered there to dominate the world and exterminate opposition. Arjuna’s job was to put a stop to their terrorism. Cruel tyrants and despots were ready to destroy India’s traditions and establish themselves as absolute dictators. Arjuna’s duty is to stop them.


The Great Conversation


And yet, Arjuna has a conscience. He sees friends and relatives in the ranks of the soldiers gathered before him. His grandfather, Bhishma and his guru Drona are aligned against him, ready to kill him and the rest of his family, What are they fighting for?

He stops his chariot between the two warring parties for a moment of reflection. His brother Bhima is the general of his forces. He will fight with or without Arjuna. But without Arjuna’s military might they will assuredly lose. And Arjuna is torn. What should he do?

Arjuna accepts Krishna as guru
He consults his friend, Krishna. Now if Krishna were merely a friend, perhaps we wouldn’t take the conversation so seriously. But Krishna is a mysterious figure in the Mahābhārata; one with strange and divine powers. His help has been sought out by both sides. Arjuna’s rival, the envious Duryodhana, usurper of the throne has also asked for Krishna’s help in winning the war. Krishna responds by awarding Duryodhana with his own army; his personal advice and help is reserved for Arjuna.

Krishna Reveals Himself

So Krishna’s advice is not merely the counsel of a friend; Arjuna knows he needs Krishna’s wisdom to win the war. This is why Krishna rides with Arjuna: not merely as a personal friend, but as a mystic personality who may reveal important secrets about how to win the war.

At the moment of Arjuna’s crisis, he has given up on winning the war. He doesn’t see how any good can come from battle. The conflict has gotten the better of his conscience. As Hamlet puts it, “Thus conscience does make fools of us all.”

Arjuna’s crisis of conscience leads to a profound discussion about death, reality, immortality, duty, karma, dharma, the nature of the universe, time, creation, the subtle influences that drive us, and the subjective evolution of consciousness.

The Circle of Life and Death

Finally, Krishna reveals the power behind the mystery: We are told that Krishna is the Lord God Himself, come to reveal truth and dispel ignorance. The battle is pre-ordained as terrorist kings are doomed. The earth is weary of war. This war is to end all wars. God has his purpose which must not be questioned. Surrender to God is the active principle of positive immortality.

Arjuna is awe-struck. He surrenders and the conflict of war which may be seen as the struggle of material existence continues.

But the truths found in this great wisdom tradition never see the light of day without Arjuna’s conflict of conscience. He empties himself completely before he can accept divine truth. This emptiness or negativity may be seen as a kind of darkness or death. Krishna’s teachings are life, positive light. The Hegelian synthesis is seen in Arjuna’s surrender: Die to Live.

Die to Live. This is a synthetic way of condensing Hegelian dialectic into an aphorism. It was the favorite aphorism of my gurudeva, His Divine Grace Om Vishnupada 108 Paramahamsa Bhakti Rakshaka Shridhar dev Goswami. Die to Live.


The key to Arjuna’s conclusion is found here. Die to Live. Surrender. Before he discovers Krishna as the Supreme Godhead, he first surrenders to Krishna as guru.

Surrender begins with sincere inquiry. It progresses through emptiness. We cannot sincerely inquire as long as we have the answers. When we understand our helplessness, our impotence before death, our inability to grasp the true nature of immortality without the help of a mentor or spiritual preceptor, we can approach a teacher.


We resent the idea that someone can teach us something. It is natural. Our ego tells us that we can find out what we need by ourselves. If spiritual life is universal, then why can’t I understand it intuitively? Why would I need anyone’s advice? I know my own pain better than anyone else. Who is qualified to inform me about my own spiritual life?

Even the word “guru” sounds perjorative. It stands for authoritarian teaching, absolute expertise, cultish, supernatural, intellectualism.

One of the most famous “gurus” of the 20th century, J. Krishnamurti, had his “school” in Ojai, California not far from where I grew up. I was first exposed to his teachings when I was a high school student. My Russian teacher had one of his books on his desk. I liked some of his ideas. Later I met some of his followers

He spread the idea that “truth is a pathless land,” it can’t be found through any organization, creed, dogma, priest or ritual. Later it seemed to me that he had made his living as a guru by preaching that we don’t need gurus. He taught that you don’t need a teacher. He wrote books explaining that books were unnecessary. And so it goes.

Of course, I was a teenager when I concluded that this was an absurd premise. I recently studied his teachings again last year before visiting Kiev, Ukraine on a speaking tour. I wanted to see if I was being unfair. I found tapes of his lectures on the internet. He had a series on “education.” Since I work as a teacher, I thought this would be a good place to get an unbiased review of his teachings. At the time of the recording Krishnamurti had established a school to disseminate his teachings. On the recordings I listened to the teachers were discussing with the master what should be taught in their school. They were faced with a real-life, practical problem. Students were paying enrollment fees to study at the Krishnamurti school. They asked, “What would they teach?”

The nonguru guru’s response was a study in circumlocution. Krishnamurti responded by saying “Is that an important question? What do you want to teach? Why do we need teaching at all? What is the point of education?” The titles of his talks betray their content: “The energy in emptiness,” “freedom from the known,” “Why are we afraid to be nothing?” As he spoke with the teachers of his famous Ojai school, he left them with exactly nothing. Nothing to teach, nothing to learn. Only the message: “I have nothing to teach you.”

One may consider this as his humility. Many people certainly do. It’s well and good to say I’m not a teacher. But there is something destructive in insisting that no one can teach. And there is something terribly disingenuous in making a living teaching that you can’t teach or writing books that say books have no value. Krishnamurti was the guru of those who need no guru. Back in the 1960s, I was a bit of a rebel. I had no need for a guru, I thought. So Krishnamurti was a good place to start.

But getting back to Arjuna, here we have a man in true spiritual crisis. He’s crying out to the gods in anguish. And yet before long, he realizes he’s standing before God Himself.

In his moment of doubt, Arjuna tells Krishna, karpanya-doṣapahata-svahāva...(BG2.7) “I am weak. Overcome. I have no idea what to do or what is dharma. Consider me your disciple. I surrender. (śiṣyaḥ te’ham śādhi mām tvām prapannam)

Without surrender, there can be no progress. Real inquiry must be made on the basis of surrender. Only when we are truly empty can we be filled with knowledge.

Śrīdhar Mahārāja often told me the story of the piano teacher who charged two different prices: a regular price for new students and double for intermediates. The teacher had to unteach them what they had learned wrong and then reteach them starting from the beginning, so he charged them double.

A little knowledge is a dangerous thing. In fact one of the greatest learning disabilities is the idea that “I know this.” As a working language teacher I always discover two obstacles to learning in my students: “This is too difficult,” and “”I already know this.” These are the two greatest challenges to learning anything.

I reject what is too difficult or technical and filter it out. It’s boring, so I can’t learn it. I reject what I already know. Why learn something if I know it?

One of the most difficult things to teach a 2nd language learner is the alphabet. Students think, “I know this. This is too easy.” After five years of English lessons they still can’t spell their name. They don’t have the patience to relearn something elementary in a new way.

The question of identity is the most difficult to relearn. “I know who I am: I’m American, I’m an English speaker.” Who can teach me about my real identity?

We can only learn about our true identity when we are emptied of all previous misconceptions. This may come about as a result of trauma, loss, true inquiry, or a divine and saintly nature. The burning hunger for spiritual self-discovery may not occur when we are self-satisfied with ordinary mundane material existence. But sometimes it appears like a flash of lightning as it did to Saul on the Road to Jerusalem, to Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane or to Arjuna at the Battle of Kurukshetra. Only in that emptiness is it possible to surrender one’s self completely to guidance from an enlightened soul.


Positive immortality is possible only for surrendered souls. But what is surrender? How does one arrive at complete dedication in divine love? And what is the nature of positive immortality?

The positive immortality of surrendered souls implies participation in the living and dynamic world of the sweet absolute: Kṛṣṇa, Reality the Beautiful. Positive immortality means to join the play of the sweet absolute; to join the dance of divine reality in the highest plane. Lesser concepts of immortality are insipid.


The oneness of God, or the Divine Light, is a popular view of immortality. We are drops in the ocean of consciousness, motes of light that seek reunion with the spiritual sun of Godhead. But this is one-dimensional. The generalized idea of Spirit is that of a nondefinite consciousness, unknown and unknowable, nirvana. But the Kṛṣṇa conception of Divinity supercedes both mundane phenomenal and undefined numinous existence. Surrender opens us to receive mercy from that higher plane. Through surrender the jiva or spirit soul can transcend the sterile immortality of the nondifferentiated plane of consciousness.

And above the nondifferentiated spirit plane, immortality is positive and dynamic. Even there, we find gradation: There is the the Fatherhood of Godhead in Vaikuṇṭha, where Vishnu is worshipped in awe and reverence. There is the Kingdom of God in Ayodhya, where Ram rules with Rajya-Rama. Kṛṣṇa is King also in Dvārakā and Prince of Mathurā. In all these transcendental planes, surrender is coin of the realm. Surrender is the language spoken by residence of all these divine planes. But surrender reaches its highest level in Vrindabana.

Those enlightened beings who have a taste of this higher reality are the best spiritual guides for they have been touched by the most powerful and dynamic aspects of positive immortality.

It is uncommon for a conditioned soul to come into contact with those who are familiar with this plane of surrender. Such divinely realized souls are true masters and teachers. By inquiring from them, serving them and surrendering to them one may be enlightened completely.


Krishna tells Arjuna, tad viddhi praṇipātena paripraśnena sevaya upadekṣyanti te jñānam jñaninas tattva-darṣinaḥ,
You may the truth from a truth-seer (tattva-darṣinaḥ) through sincere inquiry, service, and surrender. (praṇipātena paripraśnena sevaya). This advice, first given thousands of years ago, holds today.


I need a teacher to learn to drive a car, play music, or speak French. Why would it be unnecessary for my spiritual life? Of course, we think spiritual life is intuitive. But in point of fact what is intuitive is not necessarily spiritual. I love sweets. It is intuitive for me to eat sugar. And yet, my Doctor tells me I have Diabetes. Sweets will make be go blind, lose the use of my limbs, and die from insulin shock.

This is counter-intuitive.

I can’t understand how sugar is dangerous. Still, I follow the doctor’s advice and avoid honey. My senses tell me it is good. But the higher authority of the doctor is there. If I avoid sweets I feel better.

Sex is fun. And yet, sex has consequences: pregnancy and babies come to mind. It is counter-intuitive to get married and follow the norms of society. And yet I am happier in a monogamous relationship. Drugs are fun. And yet addiction is deadly. Many aspects of life are counter-intuitive.

Education teaches me to live a pleasurable life by avoiding immediate certain pleasures. Spiritual educations goes beyond mundane education. Why should I not accept its peculiar demands? If God exists, if immortality has any importance, why not seek from those who have seen the truth? Why not lay aside my egoistic preconceptions that I already know everything and seek guidance from a more evolved soul? Am I perfect?

If God exists, and if he is infinite, he must have the power of self-revelation. And if I am so busy with my animal life that I have little awareness of divine life, why not seek help from those to whom God has revealed Himself?

I have seen that God Consciousness, or Divine Consciousness, or Krishna Consciousness may not be “intuitive.” Since I am distracted by so many other things in my daily life I have ignored the set of skill required for a true apprehension of the divine. Why not seek out the company of those souls who can deliver me true divine guidance?

That's me on the left, taking guidance from Goswami Maharaja